I hate meetings. I
hate Higher Power. I hate anyone who has a program. To all who comes
in contact with me, I wish you death and I wish you suffering.
Allow me to introduce myself. I am the disease of
addiction-cunning, baffling, and powerful. That's me. I have killed
millions, and I am pleased. I love to catch you with the element of
surprise. I love pretending I am your friend and lover. I have given
you comfort, have I not?
Wasn't I there when you were lonely? When you
wanted to die, didn't you call me? I was there. I love to make you
happy. I love to make you cry. Better yet, I love when I make you so
numb you can neither hurt nor cry. You can't feel anything at
This is true glory. I will give you instant
gratification and all I ask of you is long term suffering. I've been
there for you always. When things were going right in your life, you
invited me. You said you didnít deserve these good things, and I was
the only one who agreed with you. Together we were able to destroy
all things good in your life.
People don't take me seriously. They take stokes
seriously, heart attacks seriously, even diabetes they take
seriously. Fools that they are, they donít know without my help,
these things would not be made possible.
I am such a hated disease, and yet I do not come
uninvited. You choose to have me. So many have chosen me over
reality and peace. More than you hate me, I hate all of you who have
a twelve-step program. Your program, your meetings, your Higher
Power all weaken me and canít function in the manner I am accustomed
Now I must leave here quietly. You don't see me, but I am growing
bigger than ever. When you only exist, I may live. When you live, I
exist. But I am here ... and until we meet again, if we meet again-I
wish you death and suffering.